Captivating " The heart of a woman"

A womans Journey- when did you know in your heart you were no linger a girl, but a woman? Graduation? High school? College? When you got married or had kids? There are times I feel like a woman. A blooming woman and there are times in my heart where I feel like a girl places where I still feel 5.
For me I felt like maybe getting married would some how magically turn me into a woman. That I would magically figure out all the home making and child rearing info I needed.

There has been little wisdom offered on the path to becoming a woman. We know the expectations. We aren't taught what the journey toward becoming a woman involves, or even what the goal really should be.

Stasi goes on to say that " the church has not been. Big help here. No, that's not quite honest enough. The church has been apart of the problem. It's message to women has been primarily " you are here to serve. That why God created you; to serve "".

" think about the women you meet at church. They're trying to live up to some model if femininity. What do they "teach" you about being a womAn? What are they saying to us through their lives? " I can think of many woman that come to mind. There are the ones that are high fashion dress to impress people. There are the cone and goers. Then there are the ones you hope to be or attempt to have them rub off on you. The good parents with decent marriages. The people with one on one time with God.

Unseen, unsought, and uncertain
" nagging sense of failing to measure up, a feeling of not being good enough as a woman". " an underlying, gut feeling if failing at who we are" always feeling like we aren't enough and I'm too much all at the same time. ". Were never enough. Not skinny not kind or gracious or disciplined enough. But too emotional. Too needy too sensative. The result of it all is SHAME, the universal companion of women. It is joined with our worse fear of being abandoned and alone.

Which brings me to a serious heart to heart ache for me. Why is it so hard to create meaningful friendships and sustain them? Why do we feel unimportant?" We feel unseen, even by those who are closest to us. We feel unsought, that no one has the passion or the courage to pursue us, to get past our messiness to find the woman deep inside. And uncertain- uncertain what it even means to be a woman; uncertain what it truly means to be feminine; uncertain if we are or ever will be. "

The message to the rest of us- whether from a driver culture or a driven church- is try harder