Captivating chapter one part 2

"The heart of A Woman"
Scripture tells us that the heart is central. " above all else guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life"(prov. 4:23). Why? Why guard our heart? Because God knows that our heart is core to who we are. It's where our faith , hope, and love abides. Our feminine heart has been created with the greatest of all possible dignities- as a reflection of Gods own heart. ( no wonder I "bleed" for others so much and easily)

Look at the games we play as little girls. Look at the movies we love. What is it that we women want? What do we dream of??? Think of women like tama , Ruth, Eagan. Every woman in her heart of hearts longs for 3 things: to be romanced, to play and irreplaceable role in a great adventure, and to unveil beauty.

" to be romanced"
This is my fav quote! " no matter how long it takes, no matter how far- I will find you" do any of you know that one? It's a quote that I wanted to live apart of. Even if in a movie. The last of the Mohicans. The watefall scene. One of my day dreams was to always be captured by Indians and fall in love with one and just as the " whites" came to find me I would turn my back on them and declare my love for my kidnapper. As Stasi says " there are many little girls who play the " kidnapped and rescued" game.to be abducted and fought for and rescued by a hero. Like all the princess stories. They are all fought for. We long to be snow white and sleeping beauty. To be rescued. Most of us are ashamed of the desire to be fought for and rescued. Like we are weak if we want that. We are supposed to be strong and independent. But look who is buying the romance novels? You have a bible don't you? "

There are many refrences to movies such as titanic. And braveheart. Sense and sensability and little women. Wouldn't you want to ride throught the Scottish highlands with a man like Mel Gibson? Ughhhhhhh yea!

When we are young we want to be precious to someone- especially daddy. We ask " why am I so embarrased to be pursued, desired, wanted as a woman. Embarrased by the depth if this.

Most of our addictions flare up when we feel that we are not loved or sought after. Deep down maybe very deep all of us want to be pursued , seen, wanted. We want to be romanced.

" a. Irreplaceable role in a great adventure"
Some women dream of being the hero. Valiant and worthy. To be apart of something large and good ; something dangerous and worth dying for. There is something fierce in a Womans heart. For instance. Just insult her children, man or best friend. A woman is a warrior too! " before doubt and accusations take hold, most little girls sense that they have a vital role to play( they want to believe there is something in them that's needed and needed desperately.

We are awed by the nurses in pearl harbor and their curouge. The women of 'lord of the rings'. Valiant and beautiful. They change the fate of middle eartch. And what about Esther and Ruth and Mary? They had irresplaceabld roles in a Great Story. Passionate and powerful women who were beautiful AS warriors. Women love adventures of all sorts. We want to give. To be apart for the sake of what is required of us for others. Sometimes living as a hermit appeals to us. Our lives were meant to be lived with others. We long to be an irreplaceable part of a shared adrvnture