For a few weeks now I catch myself praying the same thing over and over. Sometimes in tears some time as sober as I can be. My fear of it scares me so bad. I know that things will be different merely because the girls are being raised different buy God forbid it I am seeing things in me that damaged me when I was little. I don't want to do it to the girls and I sure don't want them to be older and praying the same thing I am. Just the opposite is what I want. So I'm praying. Watching my actions and my words. Making sure things are done and said with them.
It's a strange combo. Sadness that the thought of it scares me. Fear. And desperation of never ever being the same way. All into one person
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Maggie, you are doing a wonderful job with your children. Continue pursuing the Lord and seek to glorify Him in everything that you do, especially in parenting, and Lord willing, I think you'll see some fruit.
ReplyDeleteI have similar fears at times too, but I also think that in many ways, these are good concerns to have, because it draws us closer to Him. When I think that my daughter will form her idea of a godly woman from ME--eek! It sure makes me want to walk closer to Him and be the godly woman He wants me to be.