Saying good bye again. Rip Scrappy Doo

Well, Yesterday scrappy was acting sick and weird. I told Emma he wasnt feeling good and was sick. And Emma being the bright child she is said " I think he is going to die".

We came home from taking Rylie to school and i went out back and he was laying so still. I put my hand under his chin and he took a deep breath. I put him on a soft shirt and moved him out of the sun. I layed him down and rubbed his chest and head. I prayed over him and began singing the songs i sing to my girls. Tears rolling down my face as we say last goodbyes before the last breath. I told him i love him and that it was ok. I got up to call Dave and Amy was throwing a massive fit so i made her a bottle and called Dave. I was sitting on the couch holding her and calming her down and talking to Emma and Dave trying to figure out what to do. I called our neighbor to try and leave the girls with her to get him to the vet. She wasnt there but called a few minutes later and gave me numbers for the vets. I called higgins and when i got out there to describe what was going on he was gone. Now, Im waiting for Dave to come home and bury him. I will go get Ry later. In the midst of it I had totally forgotten our bill and got electricity turned off this morning. But all is well now.

Im not the mess i was when Schatzi died but its still so sad. Its going to be sad not hearing him barking 24/7 or "roooo ooo"ing when we come home and bounding like a dear across the yard. My poor little man. Breaks my heart thinking about it. It's sad. I will miss that baby boy.